January 2012
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BOWLING BABES
I won a game at bowling yesterday! (But only one.) I also won rummy, though we didn’t play a full game.
This one goes out to Gabe, Jakey & Bazzi.
Our project at work was to make a face using felt. I made myself.
I've done some pretty terrible things in my...
but the worst things I’ve ever done, I’ve done to myself.
The boys (Cody & Ry) made me laugh so much this weekend. I smiled and laughed so much on Saturday. If I even started to get sad a LITTLE bit, they would snap me out of it and instantly cheer me up. I felt loved and cared about that whole day and it was so nice. I still cried (a lot) that night, but the whole day outweighed the sadness at the end I think.
Today was great, too. Well the day...
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I’ve been having a really rough time lately. Things just, have kind of gone from bad to worse. I know that I’m being put through all of this for a reason, whatever that may be, but it’s still very hard and very hurtful. Then through all of this mess I had a good friend of mine tell me this: “That is the perfect example of why your heart is so big! Your ability to just love...
December 2011
11 posts
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“Shame on me for kissing you with my eyes closed so tight.”
– Faye, That Thing You Do
Anonymous asked: do you still cut yourself ever?
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Christmas
Most of today was terrible. I had a really rough Christmas with my family. They don’t treat me like I matter to them - which gets to me - but also I just don’t understand it. Tonight, I had Christmas with my friends. Opened the first present of the day, which was so nice. Now, I KNOW Christmas isn’t about presents - it still just kind of bummed me out that I’m the...
So far for Christmas: I came home from church with my Grandpa to an empty house. My mom has made me cry and feel horrible about myself and my life 3 times. My family opened presents while I was in the shower.
I just want to put bears on everything.
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No matter how many times I've seen it I will...
It’s almost a problem. It was on twice in one day and I caught myself being so distracted by it both times that I couldn’t focus on whatever I was supposed to be doing. If it’s on, it’ll catch my eye and I’ll watch as much of it as I can at that moment. I will never stop loving this movie.
Anonymous asked: i'm very worried about you and its starting to scare me because i know you done some pretty terrible things to yourself when you were sad before... don't let this be one of those times
Who wants to buy me my birthday tattoo?
Giving it back to God
Today I have been a lot more God focused than I have in a while. It feels great! I’m just really doing my best to let Him lead me and show me where He wants me and what I should be doing.
I’m excited about His plans for me.
November 2011
20 posts
I was in Georgia for a week. I’ll be in Kentucky all weekend. While it’s really, really nice to get away from things at home, I feel like I keep running away from my problems instead of facing them head on and it’s starting to bother me. I would love, love, love to get away every weekend until I get to stay away permanently - but I know there are things I need to deal with...
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Indirect Message of My Jumbled Thoughts.
I feel angry at you. I feel like what you did was cruel and like you wanted to hurt me on purpose. I pray that those feelings are lies from Satan. But how can I NOT feel that way, at least right now? You knew what would hurt me and you did that. You, above most other humans, knew the in’s and out’s of my heart. You knew them all and you knew them well. You had the blueprints and...
Please don’t ignore me.
I'm hurting.
Every single thing I love attached with a memory that now hurts me.
I typed out a huge long paragraph after this, but it only made me cry harder and I didn’t want everyone to read it. Maybe one day.
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Driving home from Georgia right now. Natalie threw up in the car, again, so we stopped. At the stop one of the men in the car next to us asked Owen if he had a license. (Had the best southern accent I’ve heard all week.) Owen responded with “Well… I took swimming swimming lessons.” Same thing, right?
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I wish all the guys I knew would stop being boys and start being men.
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"Blessed are you who weep now, for you will...
Thank you to my best friend, Suzanne, for reminding me of this verse. It is so relevant to my heart right now and my life in general. I love you.
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"A Guide to Dating my Best Friend:" by Suzanne...
“If you’re going to tell her that you’re into her and then date another girl, I’ll punch you. We’ve had enough of that and we’re not doing that anymore. If you are into her and you are actually going to follow through, you better do it right. Take her out on a date. A real date. Not just to dinner or the movies. Make an effort. She likes Batman, Starry Night, Pokemon, Harry Potter, and the...
Really praying that God takes hold of everything going on with me lately. I need Him so much and I need to start letting Him continue to move in me.
My heart is at an all time, world record low. Hurting is an understatement.
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“I know you haven’t made your mind up yet, but I would never do you wrong. I’ve known it from the moment that we met. No doubt in my mind where you belong.”
:) forever.
Getting sad tonight.
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Best full moon I've had in a while.
I’m so very thankful and happy.
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The past 24 hours have been some of the happiest...
I feel so thankful. And smiley. And glad.
October 2011
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Owen & I had monster teeth in and took pictures a few days ago. I’m the best aunt.
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"You said you would always be there for me! But...
This quote has been playing in my head/on my heart all day today. It’s killing me, but so accurate. Simba gets me and I love The Lion King.
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10/10/11
Today was my favorite day of the year, 10/10. Ten has always been my favorite number, and this day was always my favorite day of the year. When I was very little I used to say I would get married on this day. One day. Last year’s wasn’t the best, which was super sad. But this year was great! Even though my heart has been very hurt lately, today was great! I was in such a great mood,...
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Being normal is vastly overrated.
#Halloweentown
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September 2011
6 posts
Here is a picture of a quarter of the acorns my kids at work gathered up for me on Thursday: Here are two cute pictures of Kyle from tonight at Meijer: He let me put this on him three different times. He kept not letting me take a picture but eventually caved. After it took him a while to get the vest on he was no longer a happy camper - but still the most precious thing.
Apple Orchard
Went to this apple orchard yesterday with some good friends. The place itself was boring. Probably the worst apple orchard I’ve ever been to. I mean, the cider was great. The donuts were good - but just kind of a suck place. Here are just some of the pictures of the twenty minutes of fun we had. Me being a little boy riding a bike. Olivia as a flower, me as a skunk, Tessa as an owl,...
Anonymous asked: You have the most beautiful heart. You also have a beautiful smile and I wish you would use it more.
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