I won a game at bowling yesterday! (But only one.)
I also won rummy, though we didn’t play a full game.
This one goes out to Gabe, Jakey & Bazzi.
Our project at work was to make a face using felt. I made myself.
I’ve done some pretty terrible things in my lifetime
but the worst things I’ve ever done, I’ve done to myself.
I drew this on Matty’s iPad.
The boys (Cody & Ry) made me laugh so much this weekend. I smiled and laughed so much on Saturday. If I even started to get sad a LITTLE bit, they would snap me out of it and instantly cheer me up. I felt loved and cared about that whole day and it was so nice.
I still cried (a lot) that night, but the whole day outweighed the sadness at the end I think.
Today was great, too. Well the day wasn’t actually great at all. I spent almost the entire day either sleeping or crying in my bed. Literally an hour of the day I spent laying in my bed just letting tears roll down my face. I was sad. But! Eventually the boys agreed to come to Beauty and the Beast with me. It’s honestly my favorite Disney movie and I could watch it every day - and they went with me to see it on the big screen. I could have done without the 3D but I loved it being so big and so loud. That was super nice. It also was really great that they love me enough to do things they don’t ACTUALLY want to do something because they knew it meant anything to me. So nice. Gabi came to the movie, too. She’s good. I love her.
Eventually hung out with Jake & Anya tonight - which was fun. Made a cootie catcher and played dream date. Those kids are fun times. I love them.
Friends are really great, that’s what I know.
I need to seek my friends more when my heart hurts.
I’ve been having a really rough time lately. Things just, have kind of gone from bad to worse. I know that I’m being put through all of this for a reason, whatever that may be, but it’s still very hard and very hurtful. Then through all of this mess I had a good friend of mine tell me this:
“That is the perfect example of why your heart is so big! Your ability to just love other people no matter what they do to you astounds me! I’m serious, Sarah. No matter how much you’re hurting in this, and I know it’s a lot, you’re already so willing to forgive and move past it in time. I can’t do that. Sometimes I can, but not the way that you do it. I know you sometimes say you don’t care because you get so hurt and so frustrated, but I also know you actually DO care. You always care and you always put your feelings second to the feelings of others even when you’re the one who was wronged. I know you won’t be completely over it or completely forgiving of it right away, but the fact that you can still care so much, or even at all, says a lot about your heart and your character. I am truly blessed in being friends with you, or even knowing you at all! Someone who constantly just loves, and genuinely does LOVE and CARE about other people, is rare. I see that in you and that is such a great gift from God in you. You truly just love people the way God intends for us and I really look up to you for that. Never for a second think that it ISN’T how you are, because it is. You are such a strong loving person and I pray that you can learn to see this beautiful quality in yourself the way I and I’m sure other people see it in you.”
You better believe I cried. That touched my heart in the deepest way.
I want so badly to give loads of credit to that friend, but they’ve asked me not to.
They have allowed me to post it, though, so that’s good.
Thank you, friend.
You know who you are.
I love you very much.
Anonymous asked: do you still cut yourself ever?
Are you kidding me, anon?
The answer to that question wouldn’t be your business either way.
